got read to filth last night
Most experiences are unsayable; they become real to us in a space no word has entered.
Rainer Maria Rilke, from Letters to a Young Poet (tr. Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy)
My worst habit is my fear & my destructive rationalizing.
Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath — 19th July 1958
Forugh Farrokhzad, from ‘On Loving’, Sin: Selected Poems
[ Text ID: I have always loved everything about you. / Even what I didn't understand. ]
hi mutuals just checking in how are we doing? delusional and spiraling? same xo
katniss is so funny she’s like “oh i know i care about peeta but i don’t know if i love him” then they have to sedate her every time she thinks of peeta being tortured
Either you're frolicking in this field with me or you're frolicking in this field against me.
like there comes a point where you think something is fundamentally wrong with you. and then it turns out it’s just Friday and you haven’t washed your hair in three days and maybe you’re also just a little lonely and the combination of all three of those things is whittling a hole into your chest every time you breathe. but also the sun’s up. and you’ve survived everything so far, so you’ll survive this too, even if it hurts, even if you have to survive it many times.
i think everyone needs to adopt “i didnt say it was good, i said i liked it” into their vocabulary right now. it did me wonders
telling your therapist “I get really frustrated because I feel like when I started therapy I laid all of this stuff out for you and was also able to identify where things were coming from and the root causes of various things, and it feels incredibly unfair that while most people learn how to do that in therapy, at some point I had to figure out how to do that by myself”
and having him look me in the eye and go, “Yeah, that’s pretty accurate to how I’d describe how this process started with you. Most people don’t start therapy running like you did,” is a whole other experience